Wow, I love my life!

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After my time in corporate America, I knew I was very bitter and more than a little cynical. I had to grow a thick skin being a naturally sensitive and empathic person. I was eaten for lunch and spat out on several occasions. I used to joke that I had to grow my B----- in order to survive. My husband finally put his foot down about 3 years ago and demanded that I couldn't say that any more. Having these feelings that my talents were not valued at work, in addition to not being able to express what I needed to express at home, drove me to be a very bitter individual. Oh, I hid it well... I smiled, laughed a lot (frankly, a little too loud). My friends knew, because, well, negativity has a way of affecting the rest of your life and all of your relationships. I did and said things that I am not proud of. But, I am only human. I knew that if I walked around putting out this pessimistic energy that I would attract pessimistic energy back to me. In this life, you get what you give... so. Lent was a few weeks ago. I usually went to early mass, but had to miss it entirely this year. That did not deter me from prayerfully considering what I would give up. I couldn't think of a thing. Those of you who know me well know that my diet is already pretty strict. That wouldn't work. Humm... then I had a huge epiphany! I will give up the thing that colors this pessimistic outlook - the bitterness I held for many situations and people. I realized that holding on to that bitterness was very selfish. So, I am giving up bitterness. Now I simply laugh at the situations and people, smile broadly and forgive them in my heart. It takes actively forgiving them EVERY TIME I see them, but I am beginning to love my life again. My husband can even see a difference. Wow. The bitterness was really holding me back. Since then I have consciously put several things in motion to "let it shine", my talents and my desire to do great works. And I think its working. I have been called by people who truly value my God given talents and my phone calls have been met with smiles. So, if you hear me humming that old vacation Bible school song: "This little light of mine" you'll know what I am doing... loving life.

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drm7.blogspot.com said…
What a powerful story! Thanks for sharing! I am going to share it on Facebook! Blessings. Love your photos, btw!
May 15, 2010 at 10:19 AM
Dawn Snow said…
Thank you so much, Anna!
May 15, 2010 at 4:08 PM
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